I'm STUFFED

I've been struggling with constant constipation for a long time now. Many medications I'm on cause constipation. Then I typically take emergency muscle relaxers or over the counter (OTC) pain relievers. That doesn't help the situation.

I believe that the stress I've been under with all the side effects from the Lamotragine I was put on for my seizures backed me up even more. In short, I was at a crisis point with my poor bowels. I had tried everything. I do mean everything to get them going again. Nothing was working.

As a last resort before calling Telehealth (again) I tried this anal suppository. And WOWZA did it work. If this happens again I think I'll use half, or even a quarter of the recommended dose. I am no longer stuffed.

 

 

This is part of the order I placed for Target pickup yesterday. I told my mom that the person making the delivery out to our car must have howled with laughter that I ordered both a frozen pizza and anal laxative. Mom and I cracked up for the rest of the way home. She said I must write a blog about it and take a picture. She made this perfect image for me to use. Thanks mom.

 

What would I do without her?

 

Not have this craving itch scratched for sure...

To be clear. I did not eat the pizza. I made myself lentil pasta instead. It wasn't great. That's the good thing about a frozen pizza though. It will hang out till you're ready.  

 

Now that I have a belly full of doughnuts and an empty butt I'm ready for a restful day. Hopefully this will re-set my system. Gluten can do that for me too. So SEE?! The doughnuts were really medicinal. 

 

Healing

I feel like the combination of where I live and the field I'm in has left me saturated in two words... "Self Care." It's used in marketing constantly and it usually goes hand-in-hand with "spend money on yourself." 

Instead I think of self-attention to be healing moments. Giving myself the time I need and attention I crave to heal. Healing is different than "cure" of course. Healing to me is sacred time to sooth your soul and body. It never fails to leave me uplifted.

Here are some things I've been doing lately to aide in my healing:

• Using my spoons to make homemade gluten free pizza for dinner. Anytime I want. (Here's my favorite crust.) 
• Taking naps as often as I can (till I'm working again of course.)
• Noticing little things like flowers and fluffy bees.
• Literally taking time to smell the roses.
• Petting my dogs every morning first thing when I get up.
• Watching movies that I love like Moonstruck and You've Got Mail.
• Painting my nails (because I feel like the days I can do this for myself are numbered. AND it makes me smile to have colorful fingers.)
• Blogging and writing in my journal.
• Doing little doodles about how I'm feeling at that moment.
• When my husband reads me a story or rubs my back (or holds my hand, or gazes at me, or...) 

MMmmm... PIZZA!!!

My adorable puppies.
How could I NOT spend as much time as possible giving them pets?

I'm noticing what all of these things have in common (with the exception of my husband) is that they don't include other people. I'm a major introvert and get my spoons from being alone or with my beloved. NOT from being out in the world with other people. 

Figuring out what gives you spoons and indulging in those activities while trying to minimize what takes your spoons is vital. At least for me. And colorful nails. That's vital too.