My Very Best Self

 

One of the things I love about myself is my ability to do absolutely anything I put my mind to. I've accomplished hundreds of things that I think would terrify the average person. But the one thing I've yet to accomplish is my happiness with my body weight.

This seems to be something millions of other people can do. Millions more appear to have self control around food (aka: a lack the addiction issues.) And then millions more have zero option and/or are starving. Which makes my gluttony all the more shameful to me. It makes me feel like I'm taking more than my fair share.

Food is my one vice. It's a big one though (pun intended). It's a huge source of pleasure, happiness, social activity... But what I am learning is that all of that is ok. It's ok to get so much joy from eating and sharing food (and having food shared with me.) What's not ok for me is the quantity and my obsessiveness about food.

After seeing the scale dip and bob like a fishing float for so many months I've finally had it. I reached my limit and I'm motivated to change. I want to be "my very best self." And like all big changes, I have a plan.

So... I made this chart for myself that breaks my weight loss into doable small goals. Each goal met also comes with a small reward. A non-food reward of course.

I am intrinsically motivated right now, but a little external motivation is also helpful. So is accountability! I'm seeing my nutritionist again in October and with some hard work I could be down 30lbs by then.

My big picture is to lose 100lbs. This chart represents the first half. I always feel more confident with small, achievable goals. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time (said someone, sometime, although I'd never really eat an elephant. Or a shark.)

I was excited to see that with some serious dedication I could be halfway there by the new year. I'm calculating a safe loss of 2lbs per week. I'm sure it will come off easier at first, then harder as I go down. That's why I have a larger amount of weight for the first few goals.

I'm a big "right tool for the job" person, so I researched and found some tools that could compliment my plan and my chart.

I really suck at portion size, so I bought these little cups to help. I feel I can eat as much fruit and veg as I want, but I need help with protein and fats. 

I'm also going to try this:

It's a "goal planner" that's supposed to help when you're trying to change behaviors and reach specific goals.

I think these tools will be plenty to support me. Then I also have my mom who is all in and my husband. They both want to lose weight and are the two main people I eat with, so I think that will be incredibly helpful for me.

Losing weight would mean less stress on my joints and muscles. Less work for my organs. It can only benefit me and my health. It's long overdue, but I needed to be in the right mindset. 

Having loose skin worries me a bit, but I figure I'll deal with that when I need to. I won't let it put me off my goal when I've barely started.

So here's to another major accomplishment in the making!