Checking In With Myself

2025 Has been as difficult for me as 2020 emotionally. This time in 2020 the COVID pandemic was really serious. Things were shutting down and people were told to stay at home unless you really had to go out. Now in 2025 everything is a big scary mess politically.

Undocumented people are hiding out while ICE is on the hunt to deport them. Or worse, hold them in Guantanamo prison. Women, people of color, disabled people, LGBT people are all targets by politicians. Thousands and thousands of important government workers have lost their jobs because of the whim of mad men with power. Much needed services are being cut right and left. 

I feel anxious and depressed. I haven't been sleeping well and I feel exhausted pretty constantly.

Personally these changes are affecting me very little. Like the lock down of 2020. But since I'm a caring person and I see the impact it has on people I love (and people I don't know,) it is affecting me in a major way.

I have to remind myself of all the good things there are constantly. Like...

• My family
• My puppies
• The support group I just started for women
• My beautiful house
• My many friends
• My lovely town
• Nature
• That I can walk a block without my chair still
• Art and cultural experiences still happening
• Good TV & movies
• My soft bed to rest on any time I need it (which is often)
• Pottery

It's already very much springtime here. That also helps me focus on good things. It's a "hopeful" time in the season wheel.