slowly learning

I'm 53 and still slowly learning what my body needs. Especially since becoming severely disabled. That was (of course) a game changer. I've always been the person in a group to take care of everyone else. The person who thought of everything and planned it all. The first to arrive and the last to leave. Well no longer. Now you can bring your own Excedrin because I travel light. 

Out with good friends.

I feel very proud of myself. We had company last weekend and I really listened to my body and what I needed. I let my husband plan everything start to finish. Some examples of changes I made are:

• I did Karaoke the first night. It was an energy stretch, but I rested before and ate healthy right before.
• I rested the next day at my usual time. I also had coconut water, a V8 and lots of regular water. Again, I chose healthy whole foods to eat.
• The third day I went to the gym and swam with my mom. Just went about my business while my husband hung out with our friends.

For me the gym has become non-negotiable. Just like a doctor's appointment. I feel so much stronger and healthier in general. My mom does too.

Day two. Out for veggie sushi with friends post-nap.

I'm also learning I have a lot less pain when I avoid sugar. Easier said than done.

If I stick with whole foods I feel my best.

Using my tools and researching new ones has also been vital. For example. I've been having killer heel and achilles pain for a while now. All the exercises to stretch it out were just making it worse. That's because it's not just achilles tendonitis. It's Insertional Achilles Tendinopathy. What a shocker. One of the causes is "muscle weakness" in the foot. Stretching will just make it worse and more irritated. I learned instead what I need is shoes that elevate my heel and point my toes down.

My first time at Karaoke. It was such fun.

I only have one pair of shoes like that. Flip flops that I nicked off my mom. But I ordered some inserts that I can put in any shoe I like. That should be really helpful. I'll also keep off it in the pool. No more stretching that foot or kicking off the side when I swim.

This is all literally the opposite of what my muscular neurologist told me to do. Sometimes the doctor doesn't know best. Right away I was feeling relief when I put on those flip flops. Now I need to break my habit of walking barefoot around the house. Dang.

Point is, I'm learning to trust my intuition. My inner voice. Myself. Learning from my mistakes and caring for me. Putting myself first over the discomfort or inconvenience of others. And that's no minor thing.