We Have Progress People!

At least it FEELS like progress, which is just as important. Also an important lesson, it's ok to cry in front of your providers. It lets them know in a real way how serious this is to you. Smiling and grinning through each appointment isn't always what's best, helpful or required.

Today was my appointment with my primary care doctor to be evaluated for an electric wheelchair. I came prepared (as usual) with my 1 page list of my symptoms related to "muscle weakness and fatigue" and a timeline of when it started and relevant dates (like when I started using mobility devices, etc...) I thought it was brilliant and helpful, but once again it was hardly glanced at. In my opinion this speaks more to how little time doctors have to spend with each patient rather than the quality of care they provide. 

Because I can walk more than 50 feet without any help (my max is about 200 feet right now) he feels I may not qualify for an electric chair. That's ok. I feel I have to try. The next step is to get ANOTHER assessment from a physical therapist. Oddly enough my doctor wasn't sure what that will entail, so I'll have to look it up (because Google knows everything!)

My husband went with me and was (again, as usual) SUPER helpful! Hearing him talk about how hard and scary this is and how neurology never responded to my messages made me tear up. I was glad to have him there to help advocate for me and stress that THIS IS SCARY! My doctor was very sympathetic and moved into "Super Doctor Action Mode" immediately.

He sent a message directly to Neurology for me and assigned us to a "Ambulatory Case Manager." He said they're like a patient advocate for complex cases when more than 1 specialist is involved. Sounds great to me! He urged us to be patient and hold out for my slew of appointments at the end of September. Then if those don't yield results he'll send me to a different neuro specialist. Wheeeee! More testing and appointments! But if it helps get results and answer questions it will be worth it.

I read a lot about other people battling complex RA or autoimmune problems where it takes them years and years (like 10 years) to get a diagnosis and some help. Out of everything that has happened to me over the last 3 years I'd say I'm most shocked by how rudimentary our medical system still is. It's just a lot of "wait and see, test and check, trial and error" and I really thought we were more advanced than that. 

It's easy to want to give in to frustration and anger, but I'm trying to see all the people I have helping me and looking out for me and focus instead on this feeling of being cared for that my doctor gave me today. For that I'm grateful.